My family's at it again...I had to just go get my sister to save her from my brother and that is truely sad. It doesn't matter what the fight was about, it never does. It only matters that each time it happens, it gets more and more violent, and more and more stupid. My family is white trash, and so am I, and there is aparently no way to change it. I am ashamed, sad, and afraid. I may not be able to go to Hellfest tomorrrow afterall, becuase I'll have to watch my family and make sure they don't murder eachother...and I'm not exaggerating....
I hate how my sister treats me.
I hate how James acts like what we had never existed.
I hate how everything I bring to my mom's comes back smelling like smoke.
Grrr! I now have a cold, thanks to my wonderful boyfriend who's sooooo concerned with my health. If I'm sick, I don't slobber all over him. Why can't he do the same for me?
I had to suddenly move away from Chibi and Jeff two days ago, and I still feel bad for it. It's not so much the moving away from them as that I did it suddenly. And it means I failed, all my hard work and planning failed in a very sudden plummit. And it effects other people. I guess it's okay when my failures only hurt me, but when they negativly effect others, especially people I care about as much as Jeff, and Chibi, it eats at me more. I've stopped crying, but I still feel empty. I can only hope it was the right decision...
Another thing on my mind lately: this "friend" of my brother's has been staying at my house since before I got back from college. He's a free-loading peice of white-trash, and he just keeps sucking money and food out of my mom, who breaks her back everyday to keep her family alive and happy. He finally got some money recently, and paid her back a little, but he still won't leave us. He has no good reason for being here, and no good reason not to leave. He's an idiot, a pervert, and a threat to the thin string of stability my family barely has in the first place.
Hi, I'm Sari! I'm 19, reddish-brown hair and blue eyes...uhm, about 5'8". I'm a friend of Beth's, and I decided to join her community becuase I often have alot on my mind, and need many people to talk to about it. I'm not usually complacent with one ear to listen, I need many people's opinions on my thoughts before I can come to a conclusion that satisfies me. Recently, many things have been changing in my life, forcing me to make hard decisions, so I'll probably use this for that purpose.
Ja ne, minna!
Okay, since people were doing introductions earlier, here's mine.
My name's Beth, I'm 21, I flunked out of college quite recently, and I work at a consignment shop for minimum wage. I started this group so I could have people to talk to when all of my friends aren't available, and because I wanted to make new friends. Sometimes it's hard not having anyone to talk to. I know this because I used to live alone in my apartment. Now I have one roomate (I had two, but one had to move out...sigh...), but still, sometimes it's nicer to get a wider array of opinions and thoughts and such. I'm glad I've got so many members so far, it makes me happy. Feel free to talk about whatever your heart desires. ^_^