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oh how i wish i knew...

the center of my life.

he is going to be getting very busy this summer... he has to work so much to pay off debts... i;m afraid he won;t have time for me. he graduates soon... goes to college soon. he;s going to be far too busy for me. i am afraid that the time he may spend with me will be time waisted... time he should have been spending on something else... xo\
i don;t know... i should shut up and goto sleep.
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Rant 2: The sadness that lies at the core of my life...

My family's at it again...I had to just go get my sister to save her from my brother and that is truely sad. It doesn't matter what the fight was about, it never does. It only matters that each time it happens, it gets more and more violent, and more and more stupid. My family is white trash, and so am I, and there is aparently no way to change it. I am ashamed, sad, and afraid. I may not be able to go to Hellfest tomorrrow afterall, becuase I'll have to watch my family and make sure they don't murder eachother...and I'm not exaggerating....

My first rant

I had to suddenly move away from Chibi and Jeff two days ago, and I still feel bad for it. It's not so much the moving away from them as that I did it suddenly. And it means I failed, all my hard work and planning failed in a very sudden plummit. And it effects other people. I guess it's okay when my failures only hurt me, but when they negativly effect others, especially people I care about as much as Jeff, and Chibi, it eats at me more. I've stopped crying, but I still feel empty. I can only hope it was the right decision...
Another thing on my mind lately: this "friend" of my brother's has been staying at my house since before I got back from college. He's a free-loading peice of white-trash, and he just keeps sucking money and food out of my mom, who breaks her back everyday to keep her family alive and happy. He finally got some money recently, and paid her back a little, but he still won't leave us. He has no good reason for being here, and no good reason not to leave. He's an idiot, a pervert, and a threat to the thin string of stability my family barely has in the first place.
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    Boom Boom Dollar, DDR


Hi, I'm Sari! I'm 19, reddish-brown hair and blue eyes...uhm, about 5'8". I'm a friend of Beth's, and I decided to join her community becuase I often have alot on my mind, and need many people to talk to about it. I'm not usually complacent with one ear to listen, I need many people's opinions on my thoughts before I can come to a conclusion that satisfies me. Recently, many things have been changing in my life, forcing me to make hard decisions, so I'll probably use this for that purpose.
Ja ne, minna!
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    Everything and Nothing, by Mudvayne
dirtroad princess halation

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Okay, since people were doing introductions earlier, here's mine.

My name's Beth, I'm 21, I flunked out of college quite recently, and I work at a consignment shop for minimum wage. I started this group so I could have people to talk to when all of my friends aren't available, and because I wanted to make new friends. Sometimes it's hard not having anyone to talk to. I know this because I used to live alone in my apartment. Now I have one roomate (I had two, but one had to move out...sigh...), but still, sometimes it's nicer to get a wider array of opinions and thoughts and such. I'm glad I've got so many members so far, it makes me happy. Feel free to talk about whatever your heart desires. ^_^
Daisuke Jigen

An introduction.

Hello everyone. I'm 22 and live in Dallas, Tejas. Yeah, Tejas, not Texas. I'm taking Tejas back for my people! Me, myself, and I!

Seriously though, I'm a friend of Beth. I'm into all kinds of music, movies, games, anime, and all the other typical crap a guy my age usually digs. If you really want to know more, just check out my LJ. I'm online all the time, and always up for talking about anything, and I'm a pretty good listener. That's all I have for now. Until next time...hatsa lasagna, don't get any on ya!

Oh wait! I guess this is one more thing....a shameless plug! Come check out my community.
My friend CC and I do reviews of movies, games, music and other stuff, so come check it out if you're into that stuff. We need more members! It may not look like much, but it's a work in progress.

Ok, I think that's enough of pimpin' my stuff. Sorry Chibi. I don't mean to steal your thunder.
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    Nirvana - Rape Me